Currently I am on my second semester of college, and I do nothing but work every day and go to school and take care of homework. People say I live a very boring life, and I honestly couldn't agree more. I work at Abercrombie and Fitch, while also working at Victoria's Secret. I am part time at both and I really enjoy the people there, that is all my life consists of so I like to get to know them. I used to think that because I came from such a small town, the people would be different out here. In some sort of way they are, but in a good way. No one is out to get you, or know every single detail about you like they do in Pahrump. Instead they respect the space, while still making you feel comfortable to talk to them. Which is why I'm so happy that I moved to Vegas, even if it was just for school I'm extremely happy that I got to meet new people after being in a small box with the same people for 15 years.
I always rise very early and experience the beautiful weather, even though I'm not a morning person. I just always seem to have stuff to do, I go to school, study, read, and try to learn as much as I can so I can make a living for myself as soon as possible. I also work late at night, since I work at the fashion show mall, when I'm off I could see all the beautiful Vegas lights and I feel free. The fresh air blows through my hair and breezes through my skin and it makes me wish I could enjoy every single part of it. Not only here, but in different states and countries as well. I am a very adventurous person who doesn't get the chance to experience as much as she would like, but that is my goal which one day I will reach. And one day my parents will be proud of me instead of trying to hold me back from what I love.
Tuesday, April 4, 2017
A letter to those with strict parents
I want to start off by saying, hang in there. I know it may seem like you are "trying to grow up too fast". That may be true, but I want you to know that there is nothing wrong with that. That is how we learn, even if your parents don't agree. Parents are parents, they never want to watch you leave...which is understandable. How could a baby they made, who they watched grow every phase, the baby that they once seen in diapers possibly leave so fast? It is a scary feeling if you put yourself in those shoes. Imagine becoming so close to someone and them suddenly just leaving on to bigger things. When I put it in that perspective it gives me a brief understaning of why parents act the way they do, but I truly believe they should step in our shoes for a second.
Life is full of ups and downs, you meet people, and lose some too. That is just something that is inevitable which is what I feel some parents miss. They lived their life, so why is it not okay for us to live ours? What they need to look at, is their past and realize that we have to build our own story. I personally am 19 years old, turning twenty this November and they still treat me like I'm 10 years old. They say I should ask for permission "out of respect", but shouldn't they respect what I want to do that certain day, or whatever choice I'm making? They want to be respected but don't want to show any respect back which is the problem.
If you want to live freely, and happy without feeling restrained the best thing to do is talk to them. I know it might be a scary feeling, that is something I can't stress enough but it is something that has to be done if you want change. Something that I always tend to think of when I feel like i'll lose my family is that if someone really loves you and cares for you they will forgive, and understand no matter what the problem is. They will chose your happiness over theirs because that is what you do when you love someone. If it backfires, at least you have change and one day they will realize that you did nothing wrong, and they lost an amazing person like yourself just because they couldn't understand.
Life is full of ups and downs, you meet people, and lose some too. That is just something that is inevitable which is what I feel some parents miss. They lived their life, so why is it not okay for us to live ours? What they need to look at, is their past and realize that we have to build our own story. I personally am 19 years old, turning twenty this November and they still treat me like I'm 10 years old. They say I should ask for permission "out of respect", but shouldn't they respect what I want to do that certain day, or whatever choice I'm making? They want to be respected but don't want to show any respect back which is the problem.
If you want to live freely, and happy without feeling restrained the best thing to do is talk to them. I know it might be a scary feeling, that is something I can't stress enough but it is something that has to be done if you want change. Something that I always tend to think of when I feel like i'll lose my family is that if someone really loves you and cares for you they will forgive, and understand no matter what the problem is. They will chose your happiness over theirs because that is what you do when you love someone. If it backfires, at least you have change and one day they will realize that you did nothing wrong, and they lost an amazing person like yourself just because they couldn't understand.
About Me
I know when people read an "about me" they get excited to see all the interesting things said. But in this case it is going to be very disappointing. I am a simple, shy girl who was born in Fontan Valley, California.Sadly, I'm currently nineteen years old and still haven't been there since I was three. At that age, I moved to a small town called Pahrump, Nevada. Anyone reading this has probably never heard of it because it is so tiny that there is nothing new there to see. Since it was a small town I never really went out unless it was for cheer practice so I didn't enjoy my school years as much as others would. My family is so important to me, and I wouldn't be where I am now if it wasn't for each and every one of them, but as much as I love them, I wish that they wouldn't be so hard on me. That is something that has had a big impact on me as a person.
I am one of those people to stand up for what I think is best for myself, but I also have a side to me that if I can make anyone happy before me I will. That is a blessing a curse all in one. But that is something that has made stories in my life, it has made me grow, improve myself, and mentally become strong enough to have patience and understanding as to why things happen the way they do. It has made me open my eyes to realize the people who deserve to put first, and those who you just need to leave behind. Which is why I have created this blog, to explain my story in which I hope you readers enjoy.
I am one of those people to stand up for what I think is best for myself, but I also have a side to me that if I can make anyone happy before me I will. That is a blessing a curse all in one. But that is something that has made stories in my life, it has made me grow, improve myself, and mentally become strong enough to have patience and understanding as to why things happen the way they do. It has made me open my eyes to realize the people who deserve to put first, and those who you just need to leave behind. Which is why I have created this blog, to explain my story in which I hope you readers enjoy.
My simple ranting diary
It is understandable when people try to tell one another that they understand the way they feel, because even if they have lived through it, it could be different. Whether it is the way they approach it, how big their feelings are, or if it was as bad as the other. So with that thought, has anyone else had to really experience such judge mental parents? Most likely. But I feel as if my case is different.
I am the only girl, with two older brothers and parents that have such high standards for me.
I feel like I am in a constant bubble where I am being watched and judged every step I make. I worry about messing up instead of accepting them and learning from them because I don't want to disappoint my family. They come from a time and place where they expect every young lady to move out ONLY when they are married. And it is not that I don't understand that because I completely get where they are coming from and how proud they must feel if I were to give them that honor, but how am I supposed to learn? How am I supposed to get comfortable, and be sure that a man loves me when he hasn't seen me sleep, wake up with messy hair, experienced my grumpy mornings, tasted my burnt pancakes, or all my other flaws that he could learn about. What if I marry them and after seeing all that, they decide they don't want to spend the rest of their life with me? My dream is to get married once and only once, which is why I need to experience before I make big decisions. Also, what other 19 year old still has to ask their parents for permission to go out with their friends? I am an adult and my family thinks it necessary to keep me from experiencing the little things in life. I see my friends going on vacations and I eagerly die to do what they are doing, but I am an adult and I easily can go. I am in college, I have two jobs and I still don't deserve to do what makes me happy in my parents eyes. Sadly, if I ever were to tell my parents this they would never speak to me again. So, I have to chose between making myself happy and losing important people to me or making my family happy and living the way they want me to.
I am the only girl, with two older brothers and parents that have such high standards for me.
I feel like I am in a constant bubble where I am being watched and judged every step I make. I worry about messing up instead of accepting them and learning from them because I don't want to disappoint my family. They come from a time and place where they expect every young lady to move out ONLY when they are married. And it is not that I don't understand that because I completely get where they are coming from and how proud they must feel if I were to give them that honor, but how am I supposed to learn? How am I supposed to get comfortable, and be sure that a man loves me when he hasn't seen me sleep, wake up with messy hair, experienced my grumpy mornings, tasted my burnt pancakes, or all my other flaws that he could learn about. What if I marry them and after seeing all that, they decide they don't want to spend the rest of their life with me? My dream is to get married once and only once, which is why I need to experience before I make big decisions. Also, what other 19 year old still has to ask their parents for permission to go out with their friends? I am an adult and my family thinks it necessary to keep me from experiencing the little things in life. I see my friends going on vacations and I eagerly die to do what they are doing, but I am an adult and I easily can go. I am in college, I have two jobs and I still don't deserve to do what makes me happy in my parents eyes. Sadly, if I ever were to tell my parents this they would never speak to me again. So, I have to chose between making myself happy and losing important people to me or making my family happy and living the way they want me to.
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